Thursday, April 17, 2008

Day 27, Back, Satan!

Thursdays are the busiest day of the week for me, and now, instead of a lunch hour, I have a workout hour, which only piles on strain. It's Thursday night that makes me really want to come home, have a beer, eat something heavy and cheesy (pasta, pizza, veggie burgers) and watch a movie.

I won't do that tonight, but it sounded pretty good as I typed that. Doing something like this, you will find that the little tempter in the back of your head is strongest in times of stress and strain. What's messed up is that it is those times you need exercise and a healthy diet more than any others. I know that if I ate some gross stuff and drank a beer, I'd feel pretty good tonight, but doubly as bad tomorrow.

So it's an egg-white smoothie for me, and a cup of tea.

All human suffering is caused not by what is, but what we would like it to be. Finding that space where you're not projecting your own desires onto every situation is hard to do, but it's also where happiness lies. Hopefully, repeating the craving/attachment, cutting craving/attachment exercise every Thursday night will be good training for the rest of my life. It better be good for something!

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

This is compelling stuff Patrick. I'm curious - who are you? What are your previous lives? Where did you come from? How did you grow up? I'm a parent myself? How did your raise you? Hoping there is some clue here as to how to raise equally mindful, independent minded kids...